Timeless Spirituality
Timeless Spirituality, hosted by Daniel "The Past Life Regressionist," is a captivating podcast that explores the depths of spirituality and its connection to time. Join Daniel and his guests as they delve into past life regression, astrology, and the timeless essence of existence. With occasional humorous moments, this podcast offers profound insights, making it a unique blend of enlightening entertainment. Tune in to connect with your inner self and uncover the totality of who you are and who you've been throughout time.
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Timeless Spirituality
Ep. 103 - Homeward Journeys (ft. Riss Cottrill)
Have you ever felt like home isn’t just a physical place but something you carry inside? In this episode, Daniel talks with Riss Cottrill about what home really means and how we learn to accept and understand ourselves along the way.
Using personal stories and astrological insights, they talk about the rebellious experiences of youth, the comfort we find in familiar routines, and the challenge of redefining what home means once we leave where we grew up. This episode highlights the power of embracing who we really are, with Riss sharing her journey from being a scientist to finding spirituality. Her practical advice on shadow work and astrology offers ways to feel more at home within ourselves.
Tune in to discover how embracing vulnerability and authenticity can lead to profound personal growth and a deeper connection with the world around you.
Marisa's Bio:
Marisa (Riss) Cottrill is a personal development coach, published author, speaker, and ceremonial facilitator. She is passionate about using shadow work to hack the inner workings of the mind, and helping her clients reach their highest potentials. Riss is also a writer, and house astrologer for the brand Tamed Wild. She draws upon mythology, and the language of the stars for guidance, symbolism, and insight into healing, and personal development. You can find her speaking, coaching, and offering readings at retreats, conferences, ceremonies, and more.
You can also find her work by navigating to the following platforms:
Website: www.marisacottrill.com
Instagram: @allmyancestors
YouTube: All My Ancestors
WORKSHOP: December 21st, 2024
https://www.jennysrp.com/event-details/experience-the-magic-of-the-season-with-quantum-healing
Hey everyone, welcome back to Timeless Spirituality. First up, I want to tell you guys about a new workshop that I have coming up on December 21st at 11am Pacific Time, 2pm Eastern Time, and I'm going to be co-hosting that with frequent guest Jenny Sherman. So what's this event? Well, I got a description for you. The Winter Solstice holds a particular kind of magic that has been celebrated across time in different cultures around the world in very similar ways, holding the light of hope and special power of brotherhood and connection that gets us through the darkest days of the year ahead. In this online live special event, we'll tap into that special holiday spirit through myth and history, as well as directly experiencing a guided past life regression quantum healing session, and the title of the event is Experience the Magic of the Season with Quantum Healing. So hope to see you guys there for a fun solstice workshop right there on December 21st at the solstice.
Speaker 1:Yeah, all right, a little bit about today's episode. So this was recorded the day that the Mirror of Time 5 Vagabond was released. So I was having a bit of an emotional hangover, I guess you could say, because putting that episode out was the most vulnerable thing I've ever done and I was just still kind of well, as I said, emotionally hungover and just kind of not really getting my footing down because I'm like what the hell did?
Speaker 1:I just do put it not out there. I probably could have planned better by not recording the episode that day, but it happened. And with that, you'll see, there's a process that I'm working through, just trying to understand everything that I'm feeling. And I also did something in this episode that I've never done before, which is I stopped it right in the middle and recorded a message later on. And when you guys get to that point, you'll see see why.
Speaker 1:And I just want to commend Riss, my guest for today. She's awesome, she's the best and she handled herself in such an amazing way and I just I really want you guys to pay attention to just the art of Riss and her, her skill. She's just, she's great. So everyone, go check out Riss at All my Ancestors and enjoy the episode. With all that said, if you would like to book a regression with me to discover who, when and where you have been throughout time, you can reach me on Instagram at thepastliferegressionist, or my website, thepastliferegressionistcom. And now it's time to begin lifeaggressionistcom. And now it's time to begin. And one more thing go ahead and check out the event details in the show notes. And now it's time to begin. Riz, welcome back to the show. How, wait, I can do better than that. Riz, welcome back to the show. How are you doing today?
Speaker 2:I'm doing really well. It's good to be here again. Thanks for having me on, Chris welcome back to the show.
Speaker 1:How are you doing today? I'm doing really well. It's good to be here again. Thanks for having me on. I'm happy to have you back With the theme of home and all that good heavy cancer energy in your chart which we'll get to. We'll get to. I'm getting ahead of myself. Okay, yeah, you ready for the first question?
Speaker 2:I'm ready, let's do it.
Speaker 1:Oh, also, I'm playing a new game since the last time you've been here. It's the guessing game, so my hands are going up for this one, this is a surprise Okay. What is your favorite song about time and why?
Speaker 2:Favorite song about time. Oh, I answered this question last time too. Can I get the same answer, because it hasn't changed? Sure okay, there's a song called timing is everything, and actually someone who meant a lot to me at some point at one point sent it to me and he actually passed away, but it's a really beautiful song about how, like, everything happens within the right timing, so that's my favorite song about time I never checked it out.
Speaker 1:I should have. So, yeah, the guessing game is me guessing the year, but I guess that kind of would have been a gimme if it hasn't changed. So next time, or you come on again, when you come on, because you're coming on again, let's just call a spade a spade. I guess I won't play the guessing game with you then, because then it would just be cheating, okay or I could just give the same answer a third time.
Speaker 1:Yeah, but then it would be cheating at that point if I so you can do. But I will, I'll. Yeah, I'll recuse myself from the game at that point I'll try to adopt a new favorite song about time we'll do your second favorite.
Speaker 2:Okay, okay.
Speaker 1:Good Because I like to maintain the integrity of the game. It's very important to me.
Speaker 2:I respect that.
Speaker 1:Are you ready for the second question?
Speaker 2:Yes.
Speaker 1:What do you believe in?
Speaker 2:What do I believe in, just like generally Wow, that's a big question. There's a lot of things I believe in. I believe that we are the creator of our own realities.
Speaker 1:What does that mean to you?
Speaker 2:Actually that phrase that literally sent me down the spiritual path, and I used to be a scientist, and I had this major awakening moment when I was 21. I'm 32 now, so it's a long time ago I realized in a split second it's a very long story Something like happened to me in college, that like got me onto this path, but I knew in a split second that I was the creator of my own reality and that I could completely change my life if I knew how to work with my mind, and so I knew that I was going to be like very much so devoting myself to that path, and so to me, it means that if you have the discipline and the self-awareness and the focus to explore your internal world and to consciously work with it and consciously move through it, then I believe that it impacts everything around you.
Speaker 1:That's cool. I mean we could go into that, but that's the whole episode in and of itself really at that point, because then we're talking about our actions, and how do we affect everyone else? Is there really anyone else? I personally believe that non-duality and duality can be something happening simultaneously. That's neither here nor there right now. Beautiful answer, awesome. Thank you, riz. You're welcome. You want to just remind everyone who is Riz.
Speaker 2:Everyone calls me Riz. My real name is Marissa. You might see either name somewhere, but I am a Jungian coach. So I specialize in shadow work and I do a lot of dream work and astrology of work, and I do a lot of dream work and astrology. That's kind of what I do on you know out in the world. I help people to really dive into their own conscious patterning and bring it up to the surface, to the light, so that they can actually transform it and heal and create their own reality. Basically, what I do for a living is what I believe in. So and what changed my life. So that's what risk is doing in the world. But who risks is a person is is a big question, right For, as it would be for anyone.
Speaker 1:Well, you've got convictions and you stick to them. I respect that.
Speaker 2:True cap. I've got like five planets in Capricorn.
Speaker 1:You do.
Speaker 2:Mm-hmm.
Speaker 1:I thought you had all those planets in Aquarius.
Speaker 2:I have three planets in Aquarius.
Speaker 1:Oh, oh, oh, oh, okay, oh. So when it rains, it pours.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I have such a Saturn chart. It's crazy.
Speaker 1:Yeah, that's been a hell of a decade for you, ben Pluto. Still more to come.
Speaker 2:Yes, yeah, yep. Pluto just has been rocking my world in this lifetime.
Speaker 1:Good news is, in just a couple years, you won't never have to experience those transits again in this life, unless there is some medical marvel that comes out before we die that extends our lives hundreds of years. It's not that type of show today. I don't know why I'm coming with that energy. I'm going to bring it back. Okay, hi everyone. Welcome back to Time with Spirituality. I just want to personally thank RISC, because RISC has been my shadow work coach for the last, as we're recording this in February of 2024. I think I've been working with you for three years at this point maybe a little over three years.
Speaker 2:Yep, I need help. I need a lot of help.
Speaker 1:I eclipsed that program that you have. That's not enough, so just keep going. And I wanted to have Riss on to talk about what is home because, well, one, as you'll hear, she has a cancer wound, so she just kind of gets it. But also, riss is indirectly responsible for me putting out the Mere of Time Home series, because without her help I don't know if I would have had the let's call a spade a spade, no, the cojones to put myself out there in the way that I have with this series. So I owe a lot of that to Riz. So I just want to thank you for helping me so much and shining a light on my shadows. While everyone else may call her Riss, I call her the queen of the shadow just because it's so appropriate, because she just loves shadows and dark stuff. She's always wearing black. If she's ever not wearing black, I'm very confused.
Speaker 2:It's so true, I've been trying to push myself to wear less black, but it is Dark gray. It's baby steps okay.
Speaker 1:Yeah, it takes time.
Speaker 2:I mean, with all that cap in your chart, then yeah, I know it does, it takes time, but no, it's been such a blessing to be part of your journey and I can't wait for you to put out this series because I think it's it's really going to. Yeah, I think it's going to bring a lot of healing to you and other people, and it's such a joy to watch you embody the work that you've put in.
Speaker 1:Thank you, you ready for the big surprise now.
Speaker 2:Yes.
Speaker 1:See the wrist doesn't know this, but the first episode was released today. See Riss doesn't know this, but the first episode was released today.
Speaker 2:People can't see my face right now, but Shocked, shocked, amazing.
Speaker 1:I wonder if I planned it this way that I would record this with you on the day when I was releasing it. It may have happened that way, maybe not. It probably did. I think it did, but that's neither here nor there right now. All right, let's talk home. Oh wait, wait One more time. Thank you, my queen of the shadow. Thank you for pushing me and shining a light on my darkness and being nice to me when you didn't have to. I appreciate it.
Speaker 2:Always, always.
Speaker 1:That's the least that I can say. I'll put it that way Because I was like damn, that was kind of cold the way I put it. But okay, yeah, home, let's talk. Home, riss, queen of the shadow. What is home to you, home?
Speaker 2:I think this is such a beautiful question because to me home is you know, it can be physical, but you can also find it in people and also yourself, and to me I feel like home is a feeling and it's also like a felt sense of belonging and I think that it's definitely connected to, like the mother archetype. You know, in numerology it's number four and which is like stability, you know, safety kind of like. It's almost like a pillar, like a stable pillar for someone to find safety and nurturing in. But then also in astrology it's connected to cancer, which is also the fourth zodiac sign, and cancer is connected to home and family and the mother the fourth house and the fourth house, right.
Speaker 2:So there's kind of this like four essence to it, you know, which is sort of like yeah, it's almost like you know, three is a little unstable, you know, but when you add that fourth element to something, it creates that stable sort of secure structure, you know.
Speaker 1:Like four walls.
Speaker 2:Like four walls, exactly Like four walls. It's a container, you know. It's a container for someone to to feel safe in, to totally be themselves in Home. To me is acceptance, it's unconditional love, it's nurturing, it's yeah, as I mentioned before, belonging Um, and I think that that looks different for everyone.
Speaker 1:How does it look for you?
Speaker 2:Well, it's interesting that you mentioned my cancer energy, because I also have a lot of Aquarius energy, and so the archetype of Aquarius is very much so about rebelling of Aquarius is very much so about rebelling and it's almost got in its in its kind of along its journey. And it's like younger expressions. Aquarius is kind of like that unruly teenager, like that angsty teenager, and so I think that, like you kind of have to almost like go out and rebel and leave the home in order to actually discover what home means to you. And so for me, I remember that you know, when I was in my young Aquarius sort of phase, I was a very rebellious teenager. I was like never home, I was always in trouble. Never home, I was always in trouble. I was just not a good kid.
Speaker 1:One of those skateboarders.
Speaker 2:I was a skater yeah, totally. I was like a metal head, like through and through. I was super angry, like all of that, and what I really discovered and what I learned from that period of my life was that that part of me developed, because at the time I had actually switched schools. I went into high school and I no longer felt this belonging, and so that stability just like shook something in me where I didn't feel stable anymore, and a lot of people that age like they're looking to fit in, and that's the difference between when you're not home and when you're home. When you're not home, you're trying to fit in.
Speaker 2:When you're home, you know you belong, right, it's like that the name Brene Brown sort of quote and so at that time, I was trying to find belonging in the wrong places, and through my experience, I created so many issues in my life. I mean, my family home was honestly like a mess, because I created so much havoc when I was younger, and through that, though, I think I really did learn what home actually meant to me, which was I didn't find home by trying to fit in. I found home by accepting myself exactly as I am and letting the right people kind of find me and knowing how to love, accept and hold my authentic self in a way where, no matter where I go, I'm home. You know what I mean, because I bring that energy with me. But I think I really had to go through a really dark period of my life where I didn't know what home was in order to really understand what it means to me.
Speaker 1:I need your cancer help for a moment.
Speaker 2:Okay.
Speaker 1:You brought up, bringing home with you. You know my chart. I don't get that concept. I just don't, I can't relate to it, because it's just so foreign to me. Because I'm very comfortable where I am. Home is very important to me the physical place. So what does that mean that you bring it with I just? I'm puzzled, I don't know what to say. How could I? I just can't relate to that.
Speaker 2:As a Taurus in the fourth house. It needs to be physical. Taurus sun and moon in the fourth house yeah and two other places, and and Mercury, yeah, and my north node and north node yeah so I don't, I don't know what you're saying right now.
Speaker 1:It's just that's French to me. I mean that, even like young and german, that's just french did you say young and german? Yeah, okay, just he was german right swiss shit, it's close that's okay well, shit, I just got that one totally wrong. If I would have got this song right, that would offset it, but no, okay, where were we? That's right, foreign, foreign thing, it's just. That concept is so foreign to me I don't understand it. Is there a way to articulate that in a way that me Mr Taurus physical home location, could understand?
Speaker 2:Yeah. So I think that when you're at home in yourself, it's kind of like. I remember a while ago I worked with a coach and she had me close my eyes and visualize my inner world as a home, as like a house. And she said, if you look around the house, is it messy? Is there a lot in it? Is it kind of sparse? Is it well protected? Like what does it look like to you? And I remember and I give this exercise to my clients as well is like having them kind of work with their inner home. And I remember I kind of worked on that and I did the work to clean up what I was seeing inside of me. And so what I was seeing inside of me was it wasn't well protected, it wasn't really well kept, like there were things that were sort of neglected, and so I did the work to not only clean that up but to maintain it. And so what that looks like is having the right boundaries, with people saying no when you mean no, yes when you mean yes, being able to not take somebody's criticism as a personal attack, and more so because you accept yourself, right, you accept who you are, and so you're able to see them clearly right. So there are a lot of things that you can do to be at home within yourself that are non-physical, and when you go out into the world, it doesn't matter who you're with or where you are. You're bringing this internal home with you. You know how to protect your home.
Speaker 2:And I was saying before we hit record here that oftentimes people dream about houses, and houses can be very much so symbolic of our psyche as well as our bodies.
Speaker 2:And I'm even recalling in my membership group we do dream work circles, and this one woman shared in her dream work circle a dream about a home, a house, and in that house there were too many people in it, like there were stuff that I'm not going to say too many details because we like to keep it pretty private, but basically the underlying message of the dream was that she needed more boundaries and it was coming through in the imagery of a home right. And so if we can maintain that respect for ourselves, if we can take care of ourselves, you know, maintaining our home may look like working out, it may look like eating right, it may look like feeling emotional clutter and you need to meditate to clear that up, or you know, whatever it is like maintaining your inner home. There's a lot of ways to do it and you don't have to be in an actual physical home to do that. Does that make sense?
Speaker 1:I guess that leads me to my next question, which is what is the difference between a house and a?
Speaker 2:home. My first initial reaction to that or thought would be that a house is like a structure, but a home it feels like warm and like nurturing. It feels like I use the word belonging before it feels like belonging, whereas like a house it just kind of feels like it's the skeleton, you know, like the structure, if that makes sense.
Speaker 1:That's where I'm having a bit of an issue. I mean, this isn't me doing an act right now. I can understand it in a left brain sense what you're saying, but maybe it's, I think it's the right brain. That's just like what the hell is she talking about. But maybe it's, I think it's the right brain. That's just like what the hell is she talking about. How do you find warmth when you're taking your home with you If you're outside on a cold winter day?
Speaker 1:that because I associate the house with the home so closely that well of course, through this journey of exploring what is home, I'm coming to a deeper understanding of what that may be, but when you bring in those terms of warmth and safety and those words, it's so unfathomable for me. This is a great shadow work, coach. You're laughing at me right now because I can't get a word right.
Speaker 2:I'm trying to not lose it.
Speaker 1:I'm getting. This is what's happening. I'm getting tongue tied because I'm like I don't get what she's talking about right now. So I'm getting stuck on this word. I can't spit it out because I feel like an idiot, because I don't know what the hell she's talking about right now. What's she talking about? I'm going to find warmth when I'm out in the prairie. What? Sorry, it's unfathomable to me to find that warmth in home when you're not in structure. Maybe that exists on its own, because I understand what you're saying, also about home potentially being a person, but if you're out there alone, where does that warmth come from?
Speaker 2:Well, what do you do? What kind of things give you warmth when you're by yourself?
Speaker 1:Blankets.
Speaker 2:But think non-physical if you're with another person. What feels like warmth with another person?
Speaker 1:Well, I mean, I actually just thought of something else for when I'm on my own. This may sound very oxymoronic, but frozen yogurt gives me warmth.
Speaker 2:That is definitely oxymoronic.
Speaker 1:It's dead serious, though there's something about frozen yogurt that brings me that warmth and comfort yeah, yeah, okay.
Speaker 2:So frozen yogurt, what else like? Spoken like a true tourist yeah, exactly, I was just thinking that. But what else if you're like with another person what feels like warmth to you? Someone being very kind so that, so you can recreate that experience by yourself, right when you're kind to yourself.
Speaker 1:Sorry, that still sounds like French to me. This is also what Rissa has to put up with. When my bullheaded self comes in, she says something I hear you, but I don't know what the hell you're talking about. I think she's going somewhere with this. I don't know what the hell you're talking about. I think she's going somewhere with this, but it's just Maybe. This is something I still struggle with Understanding. That home is within. Why am I having so much trouble with my words today? Home is within me. I don't get it.
Speaker 1:I just I don't get it.
Speaker 2:Well, if you even think about when you feel in your physical home, when you're in your physical home and you feel that sense of home inside of yourself, right, that experience is happening inside of you, like you're perceiving that it's not out there. So you could even go on a walk and think of your physical home and recreate, bring up the emotions and the sensations and the feelings that you would feel if you were at home, because that experience is perceived by you, it exists inside of you, right?
Speaker 1:I think this is also where language gets very tricky, because you just use the terminology there when you're at home that sounds like another word for house. Yeah, so that's where I think when you're in your house.
Speaker 1:Yes, okay, when you're in your house but maybe that's also where I have trouble is the association, because, as we're not taught though, this home is within you. No, when we're sitting there in kindergarten drawing our homes, it's like you got mommy, dad. I just stopped there, I'm going to get in trouble. You got people who are in your family. Some are taller than others. Somehow the dog is seven feet taller than your older brother who is just about to go to college. That's what we're taught home is.
Speaker 2:Well, it's home to you.
Speaker 1:Honestly, I'm still trying to figure that one out seems just so stereotypical. I know that sounds weird, but I feel like if the answer to that question is something that's very poetic, then it can't be.
Speaker 2:What do you mean by that?
Speaker 1:When I heard you say earlier about having home within you, you know, carrying that wherever you go to me, that's very poetic, that's some stuff you'd find in a poem, something to give you that warmth and that feeling of whatever that may be. That's what it is to me is it feels like a poem, it feels too good to be true, and I'm just going to say the other word that's coming up right now, which is horrible, but it's coming up for a reason. It feels like a cop-out, and I mean no offense to anyone who feels that way. I just don't get it. Hey, everyone. So why is it that I had that wind in there?
Speaker 1:Well, this is me now, in late October of 2024, doing something I've never done before in the podcast, which is doing something I've never done before in the podcast, which is cutting in with a message from later on. Now I just really want to call attention to how masterfully Riss handled me. I can't even put into words what it is that I just did there. Now, I didn't do anything maliciously, but I was just in such a weird space that I just was not aware fully of my own thoughts and what I was saying. And so, for what's to come. I just really want to point out how wonderfully she composed herself and how she inquired and asked questions to make it a teachable moment. You guys know that I think Riss is amazing and my respect for her only grows. So back to the show.
Speaker 2:I'm curious why it feels like a cop out.
Speaker 1:It feels very love and light and it's like as horrible as that sounds because the whole point of me writing this series was one to process my own emotions from my mom moving away from my childhood home, but also to help people see that, ironically, home doesn't necessarily need to be where you live or your physical structure. So, yeah, doesn't necessarily need to be where you live or your physical structure. So, yeah, I'm still working all this out. This was also why it took me a while to release the series, because I hadn't quite figured out what home was. But then I said to myself I may never find that out in this lifetime, so I better put this thing out, because maybe by putting it out there in the world it'll bring me that much closer to understanding what is home.
Speaker 2:So you said that you want to show people that home doesn't have to be a physical place.
Speaker 1:So what would it mean for home to be intangible in your eyes then that doesn't feel like a cop out well, that's the thing is that I don't know if it can be intangible, because I understand the concept with another person. That to me is something that's tangible because they're there, I get that. But something inside that, just that feels very intangible to me, even though it's inside and I, as my wheels are turning right now, just like why is this so hard for me to conceptualize?
Speaker 2:What do you think?
Speaker 1:Well, astrologically speaking, cop out on my part. Four planets in the fourth house in Taurus, with my North Node being there. I'm on a quest to understand what is home. So I think anyone who comes in with that purpose is going to have a difficult time understanding it. It's not going to come easy to them. That's why, still in my head, I see that horrible stick figure house with the family and Woofie, and that's home to me. And it's funny because there are two kids there. Yet I'm an only child, so you're the archetypal master here. You'd probably understand that better than I would. I hope we're not getting into all the Freudian stuff, Cause you know the whole young and Freudian thing. But that that yeah. So as as I'm trying to circumvent the question right now, this is shadow work, yeah, it is shadow work Cause I think feeling home is also vulnerable.
Speaker 2:Yeah, it's very vulnerable, like if you actually let yourself feel it. It it's very vulnerable, like if you actually let yourself feel it.
Speaker 1:It's very vulnerable if you're not used to it, you know. Yeah, I mean, I think that, even coming to the conclusion that I did by the end of the series, it's still. It's. It's perplexing to revisit that feeling, because I wrote that over a year.
Speaker 2:No, not over a year ago.
Speaker 1:I think I wrote that. Well it's been about a year. I think I wrote that in mid-March 2023. The last part Me and time Can't be wrong with that. But yeah, where's your brain going right now?
Speaker 2:I have a lot of questions, but this isn't a session, so I'm not going to ask them.
Speaker 1:We'll save it for the end of March 2024, for our next one.
Speaker 2:Yeah, my brain is immediately going to questions.
Speaker 1:Well, since we have an audience, where's your mind going to something that can help them, based off of the jumbled mess that I put out there, of me trying to process what the hell it is that I'm trying to say?
Speaker 2:mess that I put out there of me trying to process what the hell it is that I'm trying to say. Well, the questions that are stewing in my mind are very personal, so I don't necessarily want to put you on the spot, although they may help other people. It's up to you.
Speaker 1:If this was tomorrow, I'd say yes, but since that first episode was released today, the level of vulnerability that I'm feeling is just overwhelming. Yeah, can I put it on that? That's why I'm kind of off today. I just didn't sleep. Well, I freaked out last night Just like, oh no, this is happening. I don't know if I can handle that much vulnerability today.
Speaker 2:That's totally fine.
Speaker 1:Thank you for not pushing too hard.
Speaker 2:I can talk about the concepts that are sort of coming up for me, sure Without asking questions.
Speaker 1:I'd be interested to see that at play okay.
Speaker 2:So I think that, like I said, home can absolutely be a feeling. I think that you can even think of the feeling that you get when you're in your house or when you're with another person, again like that's an internal experience of you feeling them right or you feeling that experience. I think that if that wasn't readily available in someone's upbringing, if someone wasn't really used to feeling acceptance and nurturing and unconditional love, all of the things that are, you know, they soothe the heart, they make someone feel safe, if someone hasn't grown up with that, then feeling those feelings can be quite vulnerable, because we develop strategies to survive. We develop strategies and coping mechanisms and walls in order to compensate for what we didn't get. And so later on in life, when we actually are presented with the archetypal home, like maybe someone completely just accepts us or, you know, whatever it is when we feel just accepts us, or whatever it is when we feel, when those feelings arise, sometimes that can feel vulnerable to feel, because it would require us to take down our walls and our defenses that have kept us safe against not feeling that. And I absolutely do think that one can cultivate that experience on one's own. I know we can because I've done it countless times where I've returned to the home inside of myself, and that's my own experience.
Speaker 2:If someone doesn't resonate with that, that's totally okay, but to me I have found a home within myself and actually just a couple of weeks ago I was with I was with a friend and we were in his kitchen listening to a Ram Dass meditation and I started to cry Because I saw that I went to this place inside of myself where it didn't matter what was happening all around me, I just felt so at home in myself that I was able to drop any masks I was wearing.
Speaker 2:I was able to just be myself in that moment. And it wasn't because anyone outside of me was doing anything or my environment changed. It was because I went to this place in myself and I just started crying because I thought it was just so beautiful. It was just this feeling. And he actually took a few pictures of me without me knowing, and I was like a waterfall crying. But yeah, I think that you know, going to that place can be quite vulnerable if someone isn't used to it, or yeah, that's all I have to say about that that was good, well handled thank you any final thoughts on home.
Speaker 2:No, I think we've covered all of it.
Speaker 1:We've covered a cool bit. We have you ready for another game.
Speaker 2:Sure.
Speaker 1:Okay, we're getting close to wrapping up and then I'm probably gonna go get some frozen yogurt, just you know, yeah, anyways. So in this little baggie I have four different periods of time.
Speaker 2:Four.
Speaker 1:That's four different periods of time. Four, that's four, yeah, cool. So, as you can see, I'm twirling it around, not looking, pulling my hand out again. So you see and I'm not picking anyone in particular Pulling it out again because I do like to maintain the integrity of the game. Usually I do it on the third one, but I guess we're doing the rule four today, so I'll pull my hand out one more time, put it in for the fourth time, and now I'm pulling out a piece of paper. So, riss, how have you grown in the past day?
Speaker 2:I've grown a lot. Right now I'm working on trust, trust in myself and trust in a higher power, because that's actually something that I seriously struggled with for a long time and it led me down some really not great roads. So yeah, last night, like all last night, after I was done working, I just sat in meditation and I just like worked on trust. So I I'd like to believe that I'm closer to that. I know I have a lot of work to do in that area, but I would like to believe that my nervous system is a little less activated. It just even even a slightly, even slightly, you know.
Speaker 1:So, yes, you might have asked a question about that.
Speaker 2:Sure.
Speaker 1:So the trust component relates to faith in a higher power. How do you feel that that helps regulate your nervous system?
Speaker 2:I noticed that throughout my entire life I have a strong warrior archetype, meaning that I definitely fight for what I want.
Speaker 2:I'm a go getter, but I think a lot of that is the result of feeling like I've had to do a lot of my life on my own and feeling like if nobody is going to help me, I have to do it, and so the ways that it hasn't served me is that I am I have been in the past, I've been doing a lot of work on this but I will be kind of in my shadow warrior, where I feel like I have to be in control, and being able to actually create a trusting relationship with a higher power initiates me into like surrendering basically, which is not easy for me, you know, because I've had to fight, and so this is allowing me to to not control, because when we control we we come from a dysregulated nervous system, you know we threat, we feel like we have to make something happen or force or push, which has been a pattern in my life.
Speaker 2:This is allowing me to feel like I can actually be provided for and it allows me to just kind of rest and not feel like I need to control and be much more, I think, in my feminine. Actually, does that answer your question?
Speaker 1:It does, and I think what's really interesting is the parallel there between finding home in oneself and trusting in a higher power, because those are both at least I think they're intangible.
Speaker 2:Mm-hmm, they are Exactly. Yeah, that's interesting they are intangible.
Speaker 1:Very Thank you for sharing that, and just thank you. I'll say my thank you for the end. How can everyone work with you, riz?
Speaker 2:You can navigate over to my Instagram. I'm very active on there. So if anyone wants to personally message me, my handle is at'm very active on there. So if anyone wants to personally message me, my handle is at all my ancestors very cancerian handled. So, yeah, at all my ancestors is my Instagram. But you can also go to my website, which is just my first and last name. It's Marissa Cottrellcom.
Speaker 1:How do you spell that?
Speaker 2:M-A-R-I-S-A-1-S-C-O-T-T-R-I-L-L, and then it's just com, so it's just my name and, yeah, those are the places that I'm most active. I can also include my email in the show notes if that works too, but I'm very active on Instagram, so I will. Hopefully I won't miss a message on there.
Speaker 1:And what are your offerings?
Speaker 2:I do one on one shadow work, coaching, which is rooted in Jungian psychology. So I do quite a bit of active imagination, dream work, working with triggers, projections, emotions, all kinds of things. And then I also have a membership called cycles and seasons, which is a group of people who do group shadow work together and it is such a loving, supportive community. And we do new moon intention setting, quarterly moon shadow work, challenges. We do full moon ceremonies together. I often get guest speakers, we do dream work together and then I also do astrology readings. I've been a professional astrologer for like six, seven years now, so I do a one-on-one astrology readings as well.
Speaker 1:I recommend her yeah. I recommend you too, daniel Well thank you, that's what I was looking for.
Speaker 2:Five out of five would recommend.
Speaker 1:I appreciate it. 10 out of 10,. I'd recommend Riss. I win.
Speaker 2:Still comes back to the ratio of one.
Speaker 1:Sorry, go on All right, fine, 50 out of 10. That's five. I win. You know what? 40 out of 10. That's four. That's four. Now I really win, for the sake of this episode, four. Yeah, you know themes. Yeah, with all the the silly giggling that I've done, I just can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me. Like seriously, I? I know that everyone's like all right, he's just singing praises all the time. It it's because I mean it. I've gotten to know Riz over the last couple of years, so it's not like it says oh, I worked with her once and I was so blown away.
Speaker 1:No there's this consistency. It's seeing her show up the way she has for the last three years. How much she sorry, I'm talking about you in the third person. I have a habit of doing this, you know, as an audience. I'm gonna keep doing it, consciously going to keep doing it. Yeah, it's easier to just talk about you and speak about you as if you're not here, because you know vulnerability. If I'm speaking, I can look off to the side. Yeah, uh, okay, chill d chill. Yeah, okay, chill D Chill. So just from working with her for the last couple of years, it's that consistency and my faith in her just continues to grow. It's never wavered, except for the one and I think it's happened twice where she missed the appointment because she forgot to write it down, but it's okay.
Speaker 2:I let that go. Oh man, Not my brightest moments.
Speaker 1:But it's okay that that happened with me, because it doesn't happen with anyone else, because I can take it, because that's the kind of trust that we feel. She's like oh man, he was doing great until he said that one thing Not bitter about it no, I definitely I was.
Speaker 2:I was bummed out when I did that.
Speaker 1:I was like oh, it wasn't twice, it was once. I knew she wouldn't correct me, but it was once. I'm sorry, that was mean, I shouldn't have said that, but she was very gracious about it. Yeah, thank you. And in her defense, she was very gracious about it, yeah, thank you. And in her defense, she was out of town when we made the appointment. She had other things going on.
Speaker 1:I'm not doing too well now, am I? I'm really not being a good. Okay, let me paint it to you this way everyone For me, who is such a stickler with time, if there was that one transgression and I'm like, oh no, that's totally fine, that tells you something. That tells you something. So I guess that is the highest praise that I can give you, riz is that I didn't care, because that's just how great you are and how much you've helped me. That's how great you are. So everyone, this is just, this is someone who is she's amazing. So I, just from the bottom of my heart, I just want to thank you for everything, riz, and I'm sorry, but I'm not going to stop telling you that.
Speaker 2:Oh, my God, I'm like I want to cry Seriously. I appreciate you so, so much, daniel. Like it's been such a joy to work with you every single time, to watch you grow, to be included in on, like your creative endeavors and you I know you've you know guests been a guest speaker at one of my ceremonies too. Honestly, it's just been like it's incredible to have you in my life, like, like you're like the only person who is like a client and like a friend. You know, I don't I don't typically really do that so sincerely.
Speaker 1:It means you mean, it means the world's really I'm honored and I'm just I'm so grateful to have you in my life, and I'm just going to stop it here, because we're just going to keep keeping each other's praises if people are like shut up. Go bask in the shadows or something. I could have done better than that. Anyways, just thank you so much for everything and everyone. Go check out All my Ancestors, and I like to finish these episodes by saying yay, Yay.